Life & Times Of PandaCat

0244hrs, Crappy Day With Crappy Feelings

Sometime i do tink tat does different outlook of life will lead to different aspects of life as in when ppl have nt much of a expectation in life thus will ead it d way it is den for those ppl who have high ambitions in life den will lead d life which they desire it to be.

My friends as well as employers often asked me wat is my outlook of life & wat do i see myself in d future which of course i tell them truthfully & well as usual they laughed at how i see myself in future as they said it is unlikely tat it mite even happen cuz SG is quite a competitive country so with my outlook being lyk tis thus cant even survive in a cruel wrkin world out there.

Actually my own outlook of life is kinda quite simple as i just wan to b 2gether with my love one living in a hse/place which we can truly call our own as well as me holding a stable job with a stable income.

As for d place tat we can spend our life 2gether which i was plannin lyk someplace peaceful away frm the ever busy city life where everything is just d way it is with great natural scenery.

It may seem tat am nt those ppl who have big goals, big ambitions, to earn big $$ & to accomplish big things in life but for me, as long as i can b with my love one & spending time 2gether with her is just d only things tat i want.

Which sadly mayb due to tis, nt much gals / women will wan guys lyk me as they will prefer their men to have big goals, big ambitions n have high salary in order to suppor them but i believe there are some minority gals out there who are not tat so materialistic de.

But they r kinda rare in number thus mite b difficult to find bahZ although i tink it is rather hard to find tis type of gals in d streets of SG as almost every gals r materialistic in their own way yet i also cant actually call them materialistic as they are also lookin out for their own & just wan a gd life tat all.

Anyway even if i cant find tis type of gals / women in SG, i also dun mind stayin single till old age as at least i still have best buddies / friends to count on whenever i need help or anything so i truly glad / happy tat i have them as my friends.

Also there are recent events tat kinda made me believe tat the rumor of the world comin to end at 2012 mite just come true after all.

The best example is the latest old virus which had somehow manage to evolve to become 1 new deadly virus which is so deadly tat it already caused up too 100+ deaths around european countries with most casualties frm mexico.

The name of the virus is call swine virus if am nt wrong which evolve frm d H5N1 virus & even more deadly den d SARs virus.

This new evolve virus can spread frm human to human unlyk d H5N1 which cant & it spread even faster than SARs as before the infected get d fever, d virus can b spread unlyk SARs which d infected can spread d virus after he / she got d fever.

Virus just keep evolvin plus d facts lyk d ice in northpole is melting till there is none left, natural diasters happenin all around d world as i speak & etc which can see tat d world coming to an end mite just come true after all.

Mayb it is Mother Nature tryin to teach human race a lesson for all the things tat humans have been doin all tis time or mayb d time is up for d humans.

But really it is rather sad n tragic tat human race will to be end just lyk tat which mite b jus lyk d outcome of dinosaurs which went extinct after a certain event.

HaiZ, all these recent events just let me feel sad as i see no bright light @ d end of the long tunnel cuz plus d economic crisis is still nt over yet & now the entire world is being crippled by tis new virus

Thus i truly wonder when we can see d light at d end of d tunnel thus it jus plainly sad & disappointment.

So signing off. . . . .

0815hrs, Feeling Sickly & Depress

Well it kinda had been a bz wrk wk for me as had been bz wrkin for d past wk & wat made it more worst was tat i was being sickened with a terrible headache thus it nt a gd wk for me at all.

Anyway 2day just wan to talk abt different ppl with different wavelength cuz i kinda guess tat ppl with d same wavelength seem to b able to click quite easily thus able to find topics to talk to each other even up to few hrs

But different ppl with different wavelength will haf a pretty hard time to click thus lead to difficulty to find topics to talk abt let alone to strike up a conversation.

Cuz for me, i kinda had been encountering different kind of ppl in my wrk as most of time have to wrk with different ppl so kinda got tis idea frm there as i simply cant seem to click with some ppl which really let me tinkin abt it.

Sample of ppl who i find it difficult to click with are: Broan, Clara, Aldan & etc

Sample of ppl who i find it rather ez to click with are: Priscilla, Vanessa, Jing Hang, Clarence, Zacequelin, Jonathon, Norean, Shuzhen, Shirui, Natalie, Rebecca. Jasmine & etc.

But i jus kinda duno how to xplain in depth wat am tryin to say but with d ppl who i find it rather to click with which i’ll be able to find topic to talk to them even if i duno wat to talk abt.

But with d ppl who i simply cant click with, i cant even find a topic to them abt though so the only conclusion tat i can come up with is tat i have a completely wavelength with these ppl bahZ.

Cuz wrkin 4 d past 1wk at d roadshow in d harbourfront centre reaffirmed my belief.

And yet tis make me rethink again as wat abt those ppl who able to talk to ppl easily & able to get along well with all types of ppl as do they just change their wavelength to match d ppl they are with thus enable them to easily mix around with them?

Another impt qns tat need to be find out which i hope i able to find any kinds of ans

But i really have to admit tat i kinda do jealous with these type of ppl who able to get along with ppl so easily & able to talk much with ppl as compared to me being a quiet guy who always hide in 1 corner unless some1 approach to talk to me but i find it rather easy to talk to customers though on products/services though as mayb 4 a fact tat we got somethin to talk abt thus mayb tat y i lyk customer service type of job bahZ

HaiZ, a rather sad case.

It mite be due to tis tat i lost a chance to be with a gal who i lyk as it seems tat recently she found happiness with a new love cuz she did mentioned tat she did give me a chance earlier but am nt sure whether is she serious or not but yet if it is, den i can blame no1 but my ownself but nt takin d chance

So athough i may lost d chance but still she will always b on my mind & heart in which i wont give up & as long as i noe she is happy can liao le

Even so i still have to wish her all d best in her new romance, may she stay hapi always & hope she finally find d happiness which she has been searchin for.

Last but nt d least, both bleach & naruto shippudden had changed their opening n ending themes in d past few epsoides which i find it nice to listen to so i post up d songs as soon as i managed to find d lyics.

Guess tat all for 2day post

So signing off. . . . .

0124hrs, Just Feeling Tired

Sometime i just feel plain tired of doing certain things cuz mayb is because of past experience thus made me tired of doing certain things.

One thing is tat i felt tat even though if i managed to get it but wat if end results are still d same

But another thing is tat i also cant cfm tat it mite end tat way again so have to say tat i really do need to try to find out rather then stop doin it at all.

Which is rather easy to say den to do it cuz the past experience jus simply hurts alot & it had left a bad impression in me thus made it more difficult for me to say just do it.

LOL

Also duno y am feeling so emo nwadays thus makin so many emo posts too but i feels tat i must express it out rather than keep it inside me as it just huts me even more.

Sometime i do wan to blame all these things tat happenin to me on tat person who gave all these pains & sufferings but i slowly realised tat it mite nt entirely tat person’s fault as it mite had been partly my fault too.

But I mean normal human’s feelings cant changed so rapidly overnight but even if tat person dun lyk certain things abt me still human’s feeling just simply vanished into thin air just lyk tat?

I just feel tat i cant simply trust any1 as u nv noe wat tat humans may do in d spilt seconds thus mayb due to tis thus lead to me feeing plain tired to do anything involving these things anymore

Which anyway 2day is one person’s bday who i believe wont be reading my blog de but still will lyk to wish tat person a happy 24th birthday, may tat person’s wishes will come true & hope tat person b hapi always

Guess tat all for 2day

So signing off. . . . .

0057hrs, Feeling Freekin Sleepy

Sometime i do tink tat humans which unnecessarily have to include me as wel are pretty complicated, difficult to comprehend & mostly imptly untrustworthy.

Y do i said tat, well it bcuz i feel tat nwadays humans tend to say one thing & yet do anything which is totally opposite of wat he/she say, love to complicate things even though things are so much simpler & also they change their mind or rather feeling as quickly as u can say huh?!

I also duno y i suddenly feel abt tis as perhaps it was becuz of the conversation i had wif Clarence earlier 2day after i finished my wrk at suntec city as we were discussing on human relationship.

I seriously tink tat teens who were born after d year of 1985 seem to take things for granted, doesnt take things seriously esp boy-girl relationship & also always love to complicate things.

For the issue on doesnt take things seriously esp BGR is as of lyk they might say they wan to be with u 4eva, love u 4eva or make promises here & there  but few mins/days later is lyk a whole different story already.

As suddenly they will say they no longer have d same feelings for u anymore & wan to break up thus tis rather confused me as where is all the love & eternity which they promised earlier?

I mean r tis just fake/empty promises being made in order to make d other party feel happy or wat cuz frm the way i see, it is apparently tis way so y in d beginning have to make tis promises that you cant keep it at all?

Just for d sake of making d other party hapi den made all these empty/fake promises which they may tink is rather easy for them to do tat but wat they didnt realised tat after the fake/empty promises was let known den it is the innocent party being hurts most.

HaiZ, i just duno y all these things came to my mind also & i also duno how to explain how actually i feels or want to says but wat i can truthfully said tat i just cant trust ppl tat easily cuz they mite just betray / break their promises just lyk tat.

How i wish humans can b more simpler, much more easy to get along with, doesnt have hidden objectives/motives, keep their promises, b serious in wateva they are doing which i definitely with all these den will surely made earth a better place for humans to live in as no more agruments or wars.

HaiZ but sadly, i noe tat tis kind of things definitely wont happen de as human r just human refusing to change even it is gd for them but one impt thing is must change for the better n not for d bad & their own personal feelings too.

I tink am just talkin crap as i also have no idea on where tis is goin to end so guess shall just end here cuz feeling v tired 2.

So signing off. . . .

0309hrs, Feeling Crappy & Disappointed

It kinda been a pretty long day as i wrked 4 quite awhile 2day thus am feeling abit tired which already feel lyk slpin but if i dun get tis matter off my chest den i dun tink will b able to slp no matter how tired i am.

Well apparently all tis while which is my wishful thinkin all along that I & her actually have d chance to progress thus leading me to feel v crappy & disappointed for the rest of d day.

I kinda heard tis conversation from one of my friend which he told me d part which she told him in d conversation that truly made me felt tat am i really tat lousy or unpresentable to be around with.

Cuz frm d way she said d stuffs which kinda sound lyk as though sayin tat with me around, it is kinda an embarressment or disgrace for her.

Mayb i misinterprected her meaning bahZ as i also didnt hear her side of story which i kinda wanted to reply her SMS back but was feeling rather too disappointed & upset after hearing tat frm my friend.

Guess i had overstayed in the welcoming zone 4 way too long liao le & it had been my wishful thinkin all long tat anything mite come out of this f/s.

HaiZ.

Anyway i had done a personality quiz on facebook earlier tat kinda tells me tat I kinda love myself too much to actually go fully love another person which i tink it is rather true in certain ways i guess.

Cuz sometime i also thinks tat i mite just love myself too much as always pamper myself with nice foods, interesting gadgets & etc thus guess i need to actually love myself less to go n love some1 else bahZ  which i believe am certainly able to it.

Well its nt kinda lyk tat am in need to have some1 to love in my life again whom will need my absolute love, care as well & attention cuz even now i having 4 cute hamsters and 1 pretty dog who need my undivided attention, care n love too.

My cousin is right though when she said tat humans are hard to please as if humans are easy to please den am sure we will be livin in a much more peaceful country.

So well guess tis ends my grumbling 4 2day & have to go rest liao le as tml will be another long day at wrk but i still njoy wrkin cuz i get to interact with all kinds of ppl & also able to help them in their enquiries.

Another day another bright new beginning. . . . .

So signing off. . . . .